I can't wait. I went out in the freezing blizzard of hail and rain today, to get free dinner at Frankensteins with Ashley, Lea and Katie. It was horrible walking through this. I think my body just shut off, because about half way there, I wasn't cold, other than my eye brow, which appeared to be frozen. The food wasn't too great, but for free, I wouldn't complain. After I got back, I was turned to a movie called "Waking Life", which is about the dream world, one specific quote that has really impacted me is what follows... "They say that dreams are real only as long as they last. Can't you say the same thing about life? A lot of us out there are mapping that mind/body relationship of dreams. We're called the oneironauts. We're explorers of the dream world. Really, it's just about the two opposing states of consciousness... which don't really oppose at all. See, in the waking world, the neuro-system inhibits the activation of the vividness of memories. This makes evolutionary sense. It'd be maladapted for the perceptual image of a predator...to be mistaken for the memory of one and vice-versa. If the memory of a predator conjured up a perceptual image, we'd be running off to the bathroom every time we had a scary thought. So you have these serotonic neurons... that inhibit hallucinations... that they themselves are inhibited during REM sleep. This allows dreams to appear real...while preventing competition from other perceptual processes. This is why dreams are mistaken for reality. To the functional system of neural activity that creates our world, there is no difference between dreaming a perception and an action... and actually the waking perception and action."
I spent the rest of the day lost in books. I read about phenomenon such as Astral Projection and Lucid Dreaming... as well as started a book by Carl Sagan, Broca's Brain. All were great and quite interesting. So, being stuck on this dreaming subject, and with the promise of all these reading of being able to Lucid Dream, which is essentially being conscious that you are dreaming, inside of your own dream. Once you have mastered this ability, you are able to not only go free flowing in your dream, but actually able to control what happens, where you go and what you do. Determined to make this work, even in spite of the intense practice and dedication the readings told me I needed. I concentrated on being conscious in my dream for a good time, 3 to 4 hours before I went to bed, and continued laying in bed ready for this to happen. The method I was using was a combination of two, MILD and WILD, standing for Mnemonic Induced Lucid Dreaming, and Waking Induced Lucid Dreaming. In the former, you are suppose to constantly repeat counting, intervened with repeating the phrase "I am dreaming" in your head. The latter consists of keeping your brain conscious enough that when you are finally drifting into a dream, you will realize this, and pull yourself into the dream. For example, if the first dream projection you see if of a rock, imagine yourself holding the rock, thus taking you into the dream in a semi-conscious state. I'm sure if you are reading and hearing about this for the first time, you think it is absurd and I am off my rocker. But I assure you there is some substance behind these claims. Anyhow, here I am laying in bed finally at a late hour of 2am, I am concentrated hard trying to stay conscious, which undoubtedly led me to staying up for what seems like hours, I did not want to open my eyes though. And finally I could feel myself drifting into a dream, I felt myself getting excited and I remember thinking "This is it! You're dreaming, this isn't reality!" - I was plunged into a classroom simultaneously, the consciousness I felt in the dream was overwhelming, I had a full body sensation that was too intense for words, I tried to muster out the words "I am in a Lucid Dream" before I slipped out of it, but my throat wouldn't allow me to produce words, as if I was in a body paralyzed state. One of the keys to Lucid Dreaming, I have read, is to keep calm, I was the exact opposite of this, completely enthralled by the experience that has just blown my mind - hence, I woke up. I was exhilarated to say the least, wow, what an experience. I vaguely remember trying to go back into one after this, I remember being in a large field, and seeing some sort of Buddhist Monk, he told me "There isn't a key to life, the key is to find meaning in life." Interesting. I lost it after this and fell asleep for good, only to be awoken by my alarm clock, remembering nothing after this point.
Wednesday is finally here. I woke up at about 1030, planning on leaving my flat at 130, I ate a good breakfast, packed my bag up with my computer ( as you can tell ). Then headed off to the post office to weigh it and make sure it is under the 10kg limit (great idea mom)! It was 9.9!!! What a deal, I had everything I possibly needed packed in there, along with a laptop, which is quite key in traveling situations. I can find maps, things to do, stay connected with family, keep my blog updated, post pictures, etc etcccccc!!! I was excited.
Marc, Jordan, Amy, Becca and I left for the airport around 1:30, as planned, in a taxi. About 30 minutes out, Jordan was joking around like "everyone has their passports right? boarding passes? eurail passes?" the last statement echoing as much more than a joke. Marc just stared, in utter disbelief it seemed, he forgot his eurail pass. We pulled over, he jumped out, got a taxi the opposite way and met up with us at the airport. How lucky Jordan said something! Anyhow, we boarded the plane with ease. I read mostly on the plane, about 30 minutes out I decided to put my book away and close my eyes. Seconds after I did this, I felt a slightly cold and damp feeling on my right pant leg and arm (no I didn't have an accident). Amy opened her water bottle, which had quite a pressure change since being a few thousands feet in the air. It geysered out a 3 foot stream of water, which landed on myself, her and a wee lad in the seat in front of us. It was all in good laughter though, pretty funny. We landed around 7PM, took a bus into town, got here around 8:30PM, got a metro and met up with Bjorn, Tim's friend (the place I will be staying), who led us to the humble abode. Everything has gone great so far, Stockholm has a lot to offer, I for one, can't wait to get to the Nobel Museum! We will be picking up 3-day metro passes, for around 10 pounds, which allow us to travel almost anywhere, as well as take a ferry to the Vasa Museum, an ancient sunken ship recently pulled out and restored.
But, it seems time to turn in now, who knows, maybe attempt to have another Lucid Dream? Exploring is on the menu tomorrow...